Jandek

You Just About Killed Me

Jandek


You just about killed me 
And I just about died 
Stricken, forsaken, abandoned 
I left what I was 
Walking, talking, sleeping 
I'm just about dead 
The chairs are all empty 
I've stopped looking for the way 
Something is missing 
I can't find my heart 
I left it in a memory that I knew 
What's that beating 
What's moving around 
It's not important that I know 
The formation, the structure, the counting is done 
The automatic motions proceed 
The strong will continue to evolve 
Along the way I won't trade life 
I'll break it and throw it away 
And then you'll tell me it's time to go 
And like the last time I'll leave what I was 
Just about killed and dead