When I was just ten years old My mother put me in a school near our home I felt so weird I couldn't breath Always wound up in tears I got sick everyday I would hide in the bathroom I didn't want to play soccer with all the baboons I wanted to die I wanted to die And nobody did care Then I fell in love with the prettiest girl Everyone loved her but I loved her most Oh I loved her so I wanted to die She didn't know my name Her name was Maryanne I drew her a picture of myself in the rain She said it was cute Then asked me my name I told her my name It was the best fucking the day Then I saw her kissing A fourteen year old boy I could not believe God would do that to me I rushed to the bathroom I couldn't be free Why always with me? I read poetry I didn't know shit Guess I fell in love About three times after that And each time I do It gets worse than the last But no one's to blame It's God's lonely game I love being in love