I've been trying not to think about it, I can't help it I know you don't wanna hear from me, but I am selfish It kills me inside you can drink on Friday nights Not even pick up the phone It amazes me you move on so easily From someone that you once called home I wish you had enough discipline for the both of us Just because I don't know how to turn off the way I feel I know you always fell out love so damn easily But honestly, I don't think you ever had something real Until you met me, drinks in New York City Ooh, you looked so pretty Think I fell in love before I even knew your birthday Kissed you on our first date Somehow, I knew someday This would hurt 'cause I could never let you go Oh, I'll spend my whole life Missing a part of me, part of me Oh, I'll spend my whole life Hoping your heart is free, heart is free I've been trying not to think of this as something tragic 'Cause our two paths might cross again Crazier things have happened And I realize lightning strikes just once, not twice And shooting stars are burning rocks So I spend weeks inside, drowning in these dreams of mine And wondering if I'm worth your thoughts I wish you had enough discipline for the both of us Just because I don't know how to turn off the way I feel I know you always fell out love so damn easily But honestly, I don't think you ever had something real (Had someth—) Until you met me, drinks in New York City Ooh, you looked so pretty Think I fell in love before I even knew your birthday Kissed you on our first date Somehow, I knew someday This would hurt 'cause I could never let you go Oh, I'll spend my whole life Missing a part of me, part of me Oh, I'll spend my whole life Hoping your heart is free, heart is free Do you not dream of me? 'Cause I have visions in my sleep I can't ever find my peace now Do you wake up alone And feel an aching in your bones? Or are you happy without me now? The first time that you told me You thought that you loved me That bar in the city I thought you were drunk But I knew deep down that you meant it Wish that I had said it I was scared to let it happen But it happened and now I cannot forget it Oh, I'll spend my whole life Missing a part of me, part of me Oh, I'll spend my whole life Hoping your heart is free, heart is free