Killing myself slowly, so no one notices I have a pain growing, but I can't pinpoint it You make me forget about those things sometimes Hope I'm not using you to get through this ride I'm a coward on the front line I'm a hypocrite with my time I've spoke bigger things than white lies And I'm good at cutting my ties But you scare me cause I really don't wanna fuck this up That's part of why I'm slowing down with drugs But I'm never pouring out this cup I've set the bar so low for myself That I trip over it every time I get up How do I let myself get to the point where I'm laying in bed Trying not to throw up And it's not a worry cause everyone knows That I practically do this shit for fun Last week I looked myself right in the mirror And I said I hate us I'm a coward on the front line I'm a hypocrite with my time I've spoke bigger things than white lies And I'm good at cutting my ties But you scare me cause I really don't wanna fuck this up That's part of why I'm slowing down with drugs But I'm never pouring out this cup