Deprivation Desperation Wishing for some separation I am nothing I am somewhere else I'm not supposed to be All I have is hate beside me All I feel is hate inside me Rage - I let it fester Blister inside my brain Fathoming the senseless Hitched to the insane Liberate the madness That I feel every day Like a bullet to a gun Load me in the chamber And watch them all run If I'm being honest I have had enough Of crooked smiles and clenched teeth You all love to say things that you don't mean Two-faced bullshit, I'm so sick of it Maybe one day you’ll get your fucking throat slit All bark no bite, you’re so tough It’s not my fault someone never loved you enough Every day I feel nothing My burden to bare Some days I don’t mind it The hell is always there Sometimes I wish everything would go away People all around me but I'm alone in decay And it's safe to say I'll be gone any day Bite down on the 9 then die in misery What is it inside me that feels so fucking broken? I take one step forward and two steps back into the fire Desperation for the connotation of my desire I can't take anymore deprivation I'm looking for some separation Every day I feel nothing My burden to bare Some days I don’t mind it The hell is always there Starve the hunger Feed the vice I’ll do just about anything to survive Starve the hunger Feed the vice Anything to keep myself alive All I have is hate