Its in my head, won't go away, can't stop the thoughts that drain me. All form of control leaves and all I have is me. A sheltered, black room, blank canvas no colour staining. And I try to break this chain but all I feel is so cold. I've tried hard to rid myself of this. I've tried hard to wash away the hate. I've tried hard to rid myself of all things that I hate, all the things that hate me. I don't want to change, not even for you. Coz I'll always be this way, the sinner in me is you. I don't wanna feel this pain in all that I do. Now that I've paid the price, I still can't escape from you. Now I can't, remember what its like to feel sanity. I've lost all, respect I once had for a world thats always hated me. I won't be, a scapegoat, I'm exactly what you've made me. Waste product, the refuse, your worst nightmares are within me. I try hard to rid myself of this. I try hard to wash away the hate. I try hard to rid myself of all things that I hate, all the things that hate me. I don't want to change, not even for you. Coz I'll always be this way, the sinner in me is you. I don't wanna feel this pain in all that I do. Now that I've paid the price, I still can't escape from you.