he says "daddy loves me some but momma loves me all" sometimes it takes him days to act his usual way when he's back at her place he says "can we move to Chicago? I promise I won't cry" she says he'll miss his dad but he says he won't be sad a blank expression on his face and how could she have seen this when she was twenty one nobody said a word and even if she'd heard no matter what they'd said she'd have kept and made his bed for as long as she could stand 'cuz it wasn't in her hands and three is twice the price for failing to play nice and back in 1980 was the story just the same when they sat me on the stairs and asked me if I cared that my dad was soon to go my brother can't remember how he would get confused about why we'd go to spend every first and third weekend with a man he didn't know and then came the succession of more unwanted men and I made it my task to tear away their masks 'cuz the way they'd dupe my mom with money and aplomb I just wish I'd been a man but I had such little hands and still I played the price for failing to play nice