Some choices made in life Can not be undone Don't try to reach what is not for you Or it can alter your future I fell for what it can not be mine I fell for what it should not be fine I fell for what I've created inside my mind I fell in love and it turned, my darkest side It altered my future My love is rubicon Rubicon is my love Anger in my head 'Cause I can not have What I've wanted I choose to love her Think it's absurd What I've wanted She's older than me Think it's obscene What I've wanted Anger in my head 'Cause I can not have What I've wanted I don't like little girls That's the way I chose Want an older woman To use and abuse I just want the world to end I'm just feeling that I'm dead There are demons in my head There are demons in my head Darkest rubicon