Emotional disorder Frequent inner chaos Once again my blood shall boil Schizophrenic lunacy Growing like a cancer Poison in my hearts black soil Shift from pain to pleasure Heaven or inferno Addictions taking over me Stung by a divine angel Clung by wasps and autumn breeze Your poison growing deep in me Impalement, penetration Your poison gives me Purification Stimulation Suffocation Implantation Give me peace In my poisoned hearts black soil Heaving, sweating, shaking Aggressions boiling over My wrath twists and disappears Once again in calmness Heavenly schizophrenic My mind releases my utter fear A world hating me Your venom changing me Twisting me back and forth Mixing both love and scorn Poisoned hearts black soil