I see but only what is shown I cry but only when I' m torn I lie but the truth is just the same I die but my heart still feels pain The day after forever is still today I look into eternity left with nothing to say Emptiness everywhere but sometimes joy Why is my heart used as a toy I' m caught only when I' m wrong I lose even when I win I think but the thoughts are never there I run from everything cause I' m scared The day after forever is still today I look into eternity left with nothing to say Emptiness everywhere but sometimes joy Why is my heart used as a toy My life is disrupted never being the same I try to do things but they come out the other way Good things I attempt are misunderstood So people judge me as a troublemaker I don' t know what to do about what people say But I found my happiness so I don' t care anyway