Still waking up, am i still alive Wondering how much more there is left Slowly turning into a ghost, Desolate and oblivious, Colder and weaker What is there to give or take Except for despair and pain Disgruntled i walk the wheel of life With myself as my only companion A sudden thrust in middle of rest Like a shower of knives And as it pierces my very soul The dream and sight fades away I should be curious or frightened But i am only glad Releived over the end of the misery That life has given me But as i float away into nothingness I feel a steel grip taking me With the speed of light, down Deep into the hellish domains For what i did and did not For eternity i shall burn In the purgatory i made