I'm waiting patiently but all attempts are unsuccessful I just want to be pulled into the abyss that beckones ever closer I try to jump but racing thoughts delay me every second This desperation is dominating (am I going insane?) Counting the hours Suffering awaits me Counting the hours Suffering awaits Figures laughing Pointing their (fingers at me every time) I'll show them all Keep a- (ssuring yourself buddy) I won't let you go (This is all just a sick joke, is it not?) I won't let you go (I've paid my dues just let it go) I won't let you go until you fall Counting down the hours This is not a dream, a fucking dream