Guess you're really gone I've been so fixated On everything I lost In just one conversation Where you said life was long But mine isn't worth wastin' Your mind isn't wrong, doesn't mean I'm not Wishin' I could change it It's always 10 PM, layin' in my head Turnin' all my thoughts to potential texts That's the way I get after 2 AM and it's 2 AM So how you doin'? You seem fine and I've been goin' through it Selfishly, I hope your heart is ruined 'Cause somehow you still love me in my head I hate that I imagine When you get this message, your reaction It's late again, wеll, that's what always happens I know I'd regret еverything I'd send I should just go to bed Ooh I should just go to bed Ooh I don't wanna care (Mm) So I'm optimistic (Mm) Am I not self-aware (Mm) For hopin' that you'll miss this? (Mm) And you say there's a future us (Mm) But how can I be certain of what will become? (Mm) With all your words and actions never syncin' up (Mm) It's hard to know it's me you're really thinkin' of 'Cause when it's 10 PM, layin' in my head I can hear your voice, words you never said That's the way I get after 2 AM, here I go again So how you doin'? You seem fine and I've been goin' through it Selfishly, I hope your heart is ruined 'Cause somehow you still love me in my head I hate that I imagine When you get this message, your reaction It's late again, well, that's what always happens I know I'd regret everything I'd send I should just go to bed Ooh (I should just go, I should just go, I should just go) I should just go to bed Ooh (I should just go, I should just go, I should just go) I should just go to bed So why's it hard to be the bigger person? I'm just hurtin' I keep tryna justify the way you left and it's not working Don't deserve it Swear to God you're hurting me on purpose And maybe it's my fault 'cause, at your worst, I see the best in you Lettin' you go piece by piece until there's nothin' left to lose It's workin' But sometimes I just wanna say in person How you doin'? You seem fine and I've been goin' through it Selfishly, I hope your heart is ruined Really thought we'd make it in the end I should just go to bed