Quadeca

Ego Death

Quadeca


Tom: Cm

C               C7
I know I got a ego
Fmaj7                      D7
Must be something in my brain
Fmaj7         G7      Cmaj7
If I didn’t, I’d go insane
 C                  C7
I’m sorry I’m an asshole
Fmaj7                  D7
That’s just how the raps go
Fmaj7         G7             Cmaj7
Sorry that I do this shit everyday


[Part II]


[Chorus 1]
   Ab                    Bb
What? Yeah, I’m on my ego death
             Ab                  Bb
I had to reassess, I had to resurrect, yeah
           Ab                Bb
Huh, hey, huh, I just wanna be the best
                Ab                        Bb
But I had to reassess, is that why I’m feelin' less?


[Verse 1]
  Ab                                      Bb
Yeah, huh, my songs are bipolar like Ye, huh (Huh), they think they controlling my fate, uh (Ooh, yeah)
Eb                                        Gm
Cut all the chatter, no, y'all are not rappers, you just some ad-libbers like, "Ayy," huh (For real)
Ab                          Bb
I just pulled up, back in black, drop a hit, they react to that (Ooh, huh)
Eb                                      Gm
Now they see this and they acting mad (Yeah), like I’m Kanye in a MAGA hat, yeah
 Ab                       Bb
I’m so alone, see, I’ve always been one and only
       Eb                                Gm
Even back when this gold chain was made out of macaroni
Ab                                 Bb
Now they always askin' me, what happened to the old me?
    Eb                                Gm
I wish I could’ve told him goodbye, wish he had known me (Yeah)
 Ab                                     Bb
Wish that I could tell you 'bout how everyone would know you (Uh-huh)
      Eb                                 Gm
And tell you it’s worth it, despite everything they told you
         Ab                               Bb
Cryin' silent in your pillow sayin', “I wish I was homeschooled” (Yeah)
       Eb                                   Gm
Too afraid to sing your songs because you thought that they would roast you, yeah
 Ab                  Bb
I was nine, friends told me I would go lose (They did)
 Eb               Gm
Now it’s time I think I gotta show you (Think I gotta show you)
  Ab            Bb                      Eb
That’s my mind, say I don’t care, but I so do
                 Gm                     Ab
Having trouble walkin' up a mile in my own shoes
              Bb                               Eb
Never used to bet on me and now they like, “I owe you”
                  Gm                             Ab
Lookin' back at them like, “The fuck? I do not know you”
                Bb                      Eb
When I make a milli', mo’fucker, I'ma show you
               Gm                               Ab
What I had to go through to feel like I’m supposed to


[Bridge]
         Bb
Ego, I don’t need no
 Eb             Gm
Other people in my trio
  Ab                 Bb
Myself, I and me, though, we know
     Eb             Gm             Ab
We don't need no kilos, my watch frio

Yeah


[Chorus 2]
          Bb
I’m on my ego death
                Ab                             Bb
But I let it breathe again, yeah, I let it resurrect
       Ab
Yeah, uh (Yeah)
              Bb
I just wanna be the best
                 Ab                      Bb
But I had to reassess, is that why I’m feelin' less? Yeah (Yeah)


[Verse 2]
 Ab                             Bb
On the way, all okay, only a call away, feeling like a god on my Charlemagne (Huh?)
                                  Eb
I really think they want my presence,
                       Gm
like a holiday (Yeah), but I think I need to learn when to walk away (I do)
 Ab                                        Bb
Man, I got so many problems, but I wanna stay without acknowledgin' how often I have gone astray (Yeah)
 Eb
First step is denial, but I’m over that
Gm                                              Ab                Bb
And I’ve accepted it already, but it holds me back, yeah, back, yeah
                                     Eb                       Gm
Slurring my words I been moving too fast, yeah (Okay), fast, yeah
                                    Ab                Bb
Maybe I don’t wanna share it like that, yeah (Uh), that’s facts, yeah
                                    Eb                    Gm
I need to stop checking all of the stats, like that, like that, yeah, ayy (Yeah)


[Chorus]
Ab          Bb
I’m on my ego death
              Ab               Bb
I had to reassess, I had to resurrect, yeah
       Ab                   Bb
Huh, hey, huh, I just wanna be the best
               Ab                         Bb
But I had to reassess, is that why I’m feelin' less? Yeah


[Verse 3]
Ab                     Bb
I got fourty-thousand comments this week
                 Ab                               Bb
At least five-thousand said that I should kill myself, I’m a freak
           Ab                                        Bb
I’m too weak, I'm a leech, and all my music fuckin' sucks, I’m a geek
        Ab                                          Bb
I’m everythin' they want me to be and that’s the problem with me
               Ab                           Bb
So when they say you got a ego, tell 'em, "Thank the fuckin' Lord"
                 Eb                                  Gm
'Cause if you didn’t, you’d be suffering, you’d be stuck there on the floor with nothin' more
Ab                     Bb
At least I’m out here smilin' in the quicksand
           Eb                                Gm
Take your head out of that pillow, one day, you gon' be the big man

Yeah


[Part III]


[Outro]
 Gm
In the dark
                  Gm           Fm
I stare into mirrors for hours
    Bb              Eb
Until I can’t recognize myself
   Fm              Eb
A dissonant reflection
         Fm                      Eb
Both a sober and a sobering hallucination