Aloneness time stands still Ever lasting true, consuming You embrace the solitude Walk the marvelous path of reclusion Mystic, consume, gentle, safe An insect, a guest at an event A small dark room, a peaceful tranquil planet Preparing for eternity, jumped off the carousel Outside, pretending civilized Sad circus Aloneness is deep you're still You surrender your suol to a ghost And when the shadows come to call Secret thoughts become conversation From in the corners of the box I chose to think outside of I forged four fragile bows to make a circle Lays of dust fall to warm my weary heart In the marvelous method of reclusion I'm preparing for eternity Jumped off the carousel Outside pretend civilized Sad circus I've found myself but I don't know what to make out of this situation? Am I really awake? I wonder if time goes by too fast for those who've loved me in the past? Hurting are my hands and hurtful are the words that I am writing Layers and layers of dust coat my heart! Broken is the door and broken is the man who screamed and tore it down Futile are the attempts to change me And futile are my whispers in the dark Quiet is the man behind the window Quieter still the man behind the mask Black are these old brick walls I have laid Black are these cold brick walls I have painted Black is, my ambitious, tainted art Black is my bleeding Misplaced heart Aloneness, takes hold While you sleep, forever lasting grave, stealing Succumbing to the solitude You believe the marvelous dreams of reclusion Peaceful, mystical Serene downstream time suspends As ll drift Paralysis sneaks up And sedates me Upstream time flows Without me, goes unimissed I'm heading for eternity Jumped from the carousel Outside, pretending civilized Sad Civilized sad circus!