Letter To A Friend

There's a spy in the sky machine those eyes are keen to see 
Tear me apart, my way, no casual affair deeper down it flashes 
The work of a lier unsound, unstable, unseen 
And my deplorable deed still festers with ruby eyes 
Did you notice I died 
And I'm born again to figure how we lost your heart 
This needle in my conscience I cannot repair so will you ever feel right ? 
I keep trying to feed my head 
And make pretend 
That no more will I bend 
No casual affair.