Feeling the strain It's taking It's toll Break before I bend? Here comes the darkness Like an unwelcome friend Another step backwards Starts the down spiralled trend Retreating inwards Shy away from the real me Pick the scabs off my mind And let the sores bleed Let it run free Poor out my eyes, living like this Feels like I've been stuck Here for years All feelings washed away Like dirt in the rain A silencing scream From this deafening pain My shoulders sag Beneath this weight on my back Feeling my mind give out With an almighty snap It hurts when I think It hurts when I cry My insides stink From living this lie Let it run free Poor out my eyes, living like this Feels like I've been here for years Here comes the darkness Like an unwelcome friend Another step backwards Starts the down spiralled trend Retreating inwards Shy away from the real me Pick the scabs off my mind And let the sores bleed It hurts when I think It hurts when I cry My insides stink From living this lie