I woke up thinking how I've never had a good time 
I seem to lack the kind of life that everybody has 
I gotta have it, I gotta have it 
The perfect feeling that everybody has 
A little confused 
To why I continue 
To let the maggots enter me and live 
I better sterilize my heart today 
I better sanitize my mind again 

And when I crawl 
I bleed like an angel 
Suicide 
I'll never die because I haven't lived cause it's 
Something I could never find 
Something I could never find 

I'm ripped up by all that I've found 
Something aims at me from up in the sky 
I'm still confused 
To why I continue 
With every day I change a little more 
I have to fabricate myself today 
I have to recreate myself again 

Maybe my fault that I never really opened up 
Take away every last piece of life cause it's 
Something I could never find 
Something I could never find 
Something I could never find 
Something I could never find 
Could never find 
Could never find