Realizing Tonight

I tried to call, but I'm too scared, I cried too don't think you were alone, I'm sorry i could not be there for you, you deserve so much more than me, what we had it's not so bad and 
I wish you could see that it's not so bad, what we had was not so bad, I saw you I wanted to turn away voice made me think that I belonged with you, but things can't be the way they used to be, I tried too.