Open a scarlet envelope Stuffed with a poem and a good bye note Twenty dollars doesn't do any good But maybe it will when you're not eating food A pocket knife in the back of your jeans A backpack filled with broken dreams Black sneakers slapping on the ground It's such a shame that I can't hear the sound You know I'd walk a million miles Just to see an honest smile (CHORUS) But I can't travel all that far And smiling true is just too hard Sinister thoughts run through my mind But I can wait until next time I sit here staring at the blue I know I'm lost but so are you It's not really all that fair That I can't see your shining hair It's not really all that dumb It's better than being numb (CHORUS) So why are you doing this, again? Why am I losing you all over again? Why am I flooded with tears again? Why am I sobbing so loudly again? Tell me why Tell me why Tell me why Tell me why Tell me Go find yourself in a puddle of mud Go see your reflection like you should Deserve yourself in many ways Live and love all of your days I know you won't be here for long And maybe that's why I write stupid songs All I can do is watch you leave Watch you leave Watch you leave�.