To escape the perimeter of this fleshy prison
To escape into milky nimbus, blurry-eyed, light-headed
To erase dreams, memory and visions
To ultimately forget every word, every face, every nightmare
A permanent amnesia which foregoes responsibility, the enemy of freedom
But I can't forget
I remember too much
I remember evey detail, every nuance
Am forced to repeat even the most repellent occurrence
My sanity insists upon it
Insists upon expulsion
Purgation
Insists I wring from every cell
The poisoned thoughts, polluted deeds, malicious intentions
That would, if not puked forth,
Riddle me with disease
With sickness
With death
My incredible well-being is a testament to the curative of confession
The healing power of words
And if it makes you sick
So much the better
