I didn't have to look I traced their gestures through your eyes The room was lit so brightly That your pupils shrank in size One cut for every layer Of the life you'll leave behind As they partitioned the membrane To extract the life inside That's one cut for sloth That you're laying by my side Every day beholden Only to a lover's rise Long mornings in your arms Meandering insights Some wordless, some breathless Some at the same time A second slice for gluttony Now you're laying in your blood They're digging through our past To lift new engines from the hood We wanted more than what we had You wear it like a smile Smiling by your side To try and mask the pain a while A little sting for pride Whilst they prise it from the wound How quick we learnd humility In the cacophony of you Anything we think we knew We know we were blind The world around you's blurry My hearts on my outsides And let the blood be forceful As it claws around my lust Before you there was another But my timing was all rushed I've thought about it more In the two weeks since you were born Than every day and night combined In the years since you were scorned So let the blood be forceful As it coils around my lust If I have to learn its sacred Know if I couldn't have I would One day you will be young One day you will be young The incisor bites for bath An inch we needn't cut I already spent my wrath The night you opened up But now my blood is thickened In a pool around your feet I drown with all our ghosts here And each one bleeds for me Did you need someone unchained To remind you that you're free Every drip to you The whole length of the stream I couldn't mastermind it It all just seems to flow So I was just the seed From which another grows How much more blood to give As I'm kneeling at your side I just wanted to see You and I with a child So if we call that greed At least parentheses with love At least let it be known It's more than I've been dreaming of As we broach the seventh layer And she's lifted from the womb Your skin still white and trembling As they laid her there on you A river for a moment At the end of both our lines You and I conjoined in her And you and I intwined her And all my deadly sins Every mistep through the fire Every light I vanquished Or kept hidden or denied They're staring back at me Beneath the surgery lights Magic My baby Both my ladies are alive