I was never really blessed with being optimistic
Feeling peace is probably the opposite of this shit
And this is why I tend to resonate with all the misfits
Seeking validation always need someone to give it
Make a hundred shots focus on the ones I'm missing
Hate being normal, but too scared to be a little different
If they remember who I was that would be terrific
Or I could lose it all and let 'em think that I'm sadistic
That's the power of media watch how quick they twist it
One day they love you and the next they switching up positions
No recognition they'll cancel you for their own advantage
Implanted compliments are muddied out with underhanded confidential conversations
But that's to be expected when you're raised in broken nations
Hard to tell the truth when they reflect it back with hatred
Not playing victim or escaping
I'm just seeking resolution through the matrix
I'm just seeking resolution through the matrix
Though I'm high up I admit that I am not convinced
I'm a better person or reflection after writing this
Catching lighting in a bottle when I try to vent
Peeling back the layers of myself to see what I convict
Climbing up the ladder really now it's making sense
Why I push away I'm never falling in with different clicks
Game is in my mind it's a perspective I know this is it
I could quit, but I'd rather stay to show you it's a myth
Happiness ain't coming from money or making many hits
But the thoughts we give attention and the way we live
Yeah, I'm scared as fuck to think where I go after this
And even more afraid of losing all the people I would miss
Just a human so there's only so much I can take
Impacted by the trauma coming out in cyberspace
A never-ending void tempting one that I could chase
Matrix is the only place to find the peace of God and grace
