for every step i take there's something bad ahead not even all my shrinks could make me feel less sad i always take the knive and point it to my heart if only i could find what turns it all apart the more i try to understand it all the more i cry i never wanted to become this person, am i blind? if this is dreaming, i am begging someone wake me up is it my destiny to feel i always fucked it up? where are you now you should be here where are you now where did you go? you used to promise that you'd be here for me when i cried and i believed you when i found out all about about your lies i thought that i could bear the pain and i would never fall you made me think that i deserved what i was feeling after all but now i know you have a problem and now i know it's not my problem i guess that now the problem is that i am thinking, daddy, that you should just not exist where are you now? where have you gone? what did i do you seem so far, so far... where are you now? what have i done? did i not see that i am pushing you so far away? where are you now? you should be here where are you now? where did you do, daddy? where are you know? where did you go? where are you now? i want to know. i want to know i want to know... where did you go? where did you go? what did i do? i am losing you have i lost you? i am losing you.