You said You should be proud of yourself Nothing to be proud about Getting swallowed up by doubt Too many days feeling trapped in the sheets Too many nights feeling trashed in the streets And I said This is nothing to be proud about I'd love to just sit quietly Feel the Sun warm (feel the Sun warm) All the colder parts in me I'm dying to feel alive For the longest time I've been killing myself trying to fight the reasons why Dying to feel alive For the longest time I've been killing myself feeling more dead than alive You said (you said) You've got to be kind to yourself Nothing to be kind about Getting swallowed up by doubt I love you but I'm a fuck up, you see I spent all my life struggling to breathe So I said (I said) Try and spell all my worries out I'd love to just sit quietly Feel the Sun warm I'm dying to feel alive For the longest time I've been killing myself trying to fight the reasons why Dying to feel alive For the longest time I've been killing myself feeling more dead than alive For the first time in a long time I'm drunk on nothing but you (For the first time in a long time) (For the first time) For the first time (for the first time) In a long time (in a long time) I'm drunk on nothing but you For the first time in a long time I'm dying to feel alive For the longest time I've been killing myself trying to fight the reasons why Dying to feel alive For the longest time I've been killing myself feeling more dead than alive