You let me down with a kiss and I hope that when it met his lips you choked a little bit and started to feel sick Im not as easily convinced That you felt bad for this or that you lost a little sleep thinking about what this all might do to me I guess that you could call me desprate cuz time after time I cant seem to bring myself To say goodbye And I know this will all happen again But Id rather not be alone So I just pretend that everything allright But you know as well as I do That nothing is fine Who Needs reality? when we're both so good at pretending That everything is allright I hope you know your my favorite walking contradiction for every time you said you dont miss him or that you hate him I should have known About your inability to let go let me go Iv got nothing left to say to you and i dont know what to do so ill let this open door convey what I cant say to you(push a girl out of a car while its going fast) A head full of excuses well thought out and recited To shift all the guilt from your side to mine although I know that I dont deserve this my words are no match for your head full of excuses Nothing is going according to plan we're starring down the barrels of each others guns and our kisses are desprate for any meaning we just keep repeating empty apologies I cant love who I cant trust and you refuse to be honest