Lazarus Blackstar

My Sick Life

Lazarus Blackstar


Looking at the pictures in my mind 
I saw it 
I knew it was wrong but I chose to ignore it 
Got one thought left 
I got one frame of mind 
I got one good reason to fuck myself blind 
A little whisky 
A little porn 
I'm logging on and now the fun has begun 
I got one chance left 
I got no friends left 
And I don't care less 
And I don't care less 

I wish I knew 
How you were feeling 
I think I know you 
But you don't know me 
I wish I knew 
What you were thinking 
I think I know you 
But you don't know me 

Taken down the pictures of my family 
I don't want to know them 
They don't want to know me 
My girlfriends left 
She got so upset 
Cos I wear her dress 
When I show for the strangers 
I'm thinking too much 
And I'm drinking too much 
Nicotine is a crutch 
But it helps with the shaking 
I got one chance left 
I got no friends left 
And I don't care less 
And I don't care less 
And there's one dance left 
And my brains a mess 
And I don't give a fuck 
Cos I don't care less 

I wish I knew 
How you were feeling 
I think I know you 
But you don't know me 
I wish I knew 
What you were thinking 
I think I know you 
But you don't know me 

Live in a world of make believe 
And every day is a fantasy 
And nobody ever talks to me 
I don't care cos the only person that matters 
Is me 

Everybody is laughing at me 
Nobody ever talks to me 

There's nothing left…..I might as well be dead