I've been lost inside my mind Not sure what I thought I'd find Find, find Now there's nowhere I can hide You see straight through my lies I've been fighting with the tide Tossing turning every night Time is precious I've been reckless I'm not ready to go steady I can't help these tendencies to push people away from me I just, I just need to adjust, adjust Yeah my eyes are closed but I see fine Darkness never made me blind Yet I can't come to my senses Choosing sides I'm on these fences I'm not on your team I'm always in between Getting high like I'm a fiend But that's not what I need I know my priorities Number one is always me So call me selfish I can't help it I already feel the ache I can't play no games Can't kick it with no lames I've got my own goals for me and I won't stop till I succeed Searching for a part of me I'm not sure I've ever seen It's like I've seen so many signs but I don't know what they mean And I've lost my northern star Don't know where I'm supposed to be Oh what's my destiny But don't doubt me cause I am golden You don't know the weight I'm holding I am trying to find a balance while everything is unfolding If you wanna know me you've gotta learn one thing If you're not going to stay then get the fuck out of my way I've got a lot to give so please don't waste my time I always tell them how it is I don't make 'em read my mind But I won't lie man it's been hard Since you've played that victim card Ever since I've been on guard Desperately hiding my heart Nothing really feels the same I'm not sure that I can be saved I know they want me to cave so I stand tall Yeah I'll be brave I've been lost inside my mind Not sure what I thought I'd find, find, find