I haven't left my bed but my dog is giving eyes And so we step outside Without her, I'm not sure I'd be alive There's a fog by the shore There's a fog in the mirror I am searching for signs Please don't look me in the eyes I get uglier each morning, don't I? When death becomes calm When my life is a storm I will freak myself out Nothing freaks me out more I'm scared to look down There's blood on the floor Yes I know I'm alive As I'm cutting the chord Cutting the chord Finally reading the new book and it's making me feel good There's blood on my cheeks again My handwriting's changing to be more like her's 'Cause she's who I am now She's more than a part of me She was in the shadows that's so hard to see I get lovelier each morning, don't I? When death becomes calm When my life is a storm I will freak myself out Nothing freaks me out more I'm scared to look down There's blood on the floor Yes I know I'm alive As I'm cutting the chord Cutting the chord I will pull apart my insides Just to know what it feels like When I put back together Would it make me feel better? Pull apart my insides Just to know what it feels like When I put back together Would it make me feel?