First Awake Moment

First awake moment
Joy, sorrow 
Pain, lifeline 
Slam 
Second sight 
Sixth image 
God fear 
Third light 
Marriage sight 
Key 
And they were 
??? beauty 
On what I have held my heart 
So long is you 
Against the call 
Of an outstretched hand 
Of a drowning figure 
So long