Jandek

This Is A Death Dream

Jandek


This is a death dream
In the daytime 
I go to the cemetery buildings 
In search of books 
And never do I find the right one 
I just browse through death books 
When it seems the ones I want are out 
In the night time I go with friends to the cemetery 
And the entire time concerns 
Carousings and adventures within the cemetery 
But all others are insincere and even silly 
Some figures predominate and I compromise my 
Especial meeting to go with them 
I always attempt to get some of these friends to go with me 
But they are afraid 
It seems I do not want to go alone 
And leave each successive night with hopes for 
Tomorrow's daytime excursion to the cemetery 
Last time I was particularly upset 
Despair that the right books will never be there 
Because people will not bring them back and 
My reliance is weak 
I should find a way to require that which I want 
Of special interest in the dream is the night time attraction 
Of particular growing things 
Which previously were cultivated in horror with another 
In the night wanderings I attempt to get back to these to encounter horror 
But they - others are afraid or silly 
And one or two are not 
But show me replicas which are not the same 
This I know and am disappointed 
Earlier for interest I had a wine bottle 
Weird death monsters approached and I admitted them 
As they filed past into my house 
Not the bedroom where others were 
They danced in the living room 
Extremely macabre and death-like moves 
Others saw them and sometime later expressed horror as they left 
Or escaped