Waking up suicidal penniless, broken and a wasted getting used to the desperation - the sweat, the panic can't find a reason to maintain this charade why the fuck should I keep going when every day gets more meaningless? what do you want me to say? everything is not ok I used to think that I was good enough but now the easiest decisions are just too much you have your status and all of your money so don't presume to understand so don't patronize me privileged fucker you could never know what it's like to feel so starved at the end of a short rope at the end of every night - ask yourself what is left of your life? it's a disease