The cells within our bodies Are replaced each seven years But a memory can last a thousand lifetimes The itch below the surface And the welling of our fears Are the preface to an ancestral crime There was a time When I would sleep as soon as I hit the pillow There was a time When I knew not depression A hateful wind has breeched my skin And underneath it billows It burns my soul And leaves its sick impression I never knew my father But I'm sure he must be dead I feel that empty feeling in my bones A lot has changed these last few months A war within my head And raining from above like falling stones The dreams come to me every night now The masquerade conceals my wicked plans Some spirit in the wind or a man within my mind Whispers for me to descend the stairs I dare to lift my mask and take a glance into the mirror I see myself but see it isn’t me Familiar yet unknown to me the man tips me a wink Through centuries he sets me Invites me to enjoy the show I'm terrified yet mesmerised I don't know what to think The music gathers pace and the dancers gather 'round Identities not known, nor inhibition A frenzy in a heightened daze An elevated toxic phase A girl is separated and invited out for air The scene is ended by a knife A piercing, chilling scream The curtain falls it is blood-red And every morning say I say it's just a dream It changed one day, my mother died To quell the grief I cleaned the memories from her attic In my father's hand I found the note of suicide Felt that distant evil voice call through like static I read his note and wiped away my tears Those very dreams were also his They plagued his father and grandfather too So many generations driven by one twisted act A murder echoes generations through And I glance into the mirror And I see it isn’t me An evil apparition from genetic memory I take a knife to take a life I struggle with the wrong and right Within I am still there And driven by despair If I'm to take a life it must be me