Straight shock to the system Shook to the core Interrogation of my mind Could I have done more? Stepped out of my way To go the extra mile I can't embrace this change or the force of fate Frozen over wishing I could rewind time Rock bottom Spiralling down Dropped way too deep The emptiness weighs a ton The world keeps turning But it’s upside down for me Out of the blue No warning sign of the pain that was due An open wound left on my life That I can’t revive If time heals Why do I still ask why Its eating me alive Searching for answers that I know I won’t find Choked up Harder to swallow the guilt than the pride Living in hindsight, I'm full of regret Chasing what once was And what will never be again Swinging as hard as I can I can’t connect Trying to rebuild Using bricks made of sand How can I reconnect With my head in my hands? Time ain’t healing I ain’t got an eternity Weighed down by grief, I can’t take this reality