Gholgoth

As Catharsis Ends In Dismay

Gholgoth


[I can not find any words for the introduction. I think this is the deepest and most personal text I've made for this album.] 

[The Silent Prolouge:] 
Words of a Violin crying sweet, sad in my head. 
Little wisp of men dancing on the strings - fragile harmonics in the bitter Ether of Nihil. 
Never to hear such a soul-engraving melody. 

String snaps with shrill, sore sound 
Body strains in the last orgasm 

[Scene 1: Colours:Emptiness mingles with Grief. Oblivion. Remark of the last picture. Steam or smoke -a touch of blow on my face, I think. Pleasant feeling.] 

To wake up in a mute dream 
Mind drifts into amazement 
Wonder creates curiosity which often blends with muddle. 

[Scene 2:: I see myself in a dark, slow-circling tunnel, thick darkness everywhere, and a kind of light at the end, glowing like Sun.] 

I've been already here, sometime 
Tunnel of blackwater abyss 
Revolves in darkness-womb 

Floating, 
Become one with the dark drifts 
Calmness. 
I left everything outside 
Which tied me to the crest of the earth 
All I built, all they built. 
(All I am, all I was.) 
The darkness as an angel receives me into itself 
Embraces, fondles me 
And allows to touch its face. 

This is not what I'm here for. 

Observing the light which grows like hunger 
As I approach closer and deeper 
Thrill, Allurement, Ardour 
A call from beyond 
Light as Destination, I reach through my fall. 
Yes... 
I merge into the Unknown. 

Catharsis 
Scene freezes in motion 
Vibration around the body 
Face deforms into the grimace of bawl 
Pupils wide open 
Cruel, heart-splitting dismay 

" This was the man but you are light, energy and light. 
You see, feel and realize 
That the bewitching, drawing Unknown 
Holds a (maybe) quicksilver bred mirror towards you."