The ideals that kept me going turned out to be unpractical. I got lost among them on my way to happiness. The road turned out to be difficult and winding. The ideals I lived with till now didn't help. They just dragged behind me like a beaten dog whom no one can help and it dies on the way home. Proud of my ideals, I used to walk raising my head towards the sun. My eyes hurt like hell. And then I suppressed the ideals and never tried to show them to the world. Although I suffered seeing the emptiness of my soul, I did nothing to fill it with something that would make me happy. I had no more strength. There was no one who could help me recover it. Burnt out, I was lying on the beautiful, green grass which smelled of my ideals.