Every day you're digging at the cavity Sinking to the bottom of the pool The doctor said: Your shame is eating everything But when you're in love you get so cruel When you're alone it's all you think about Pulling little bugs out of your skin Crack open your skull you are an embryo And you can eat yourself again Plastic dripping through the feeding wire Liquid metals in your blood Hard to keep sleeping when the room's on fire They're cutting deeper than they should Tried to call her from the southbound train Thought you were headed somewhere new But you wake up on the floor again The concrete pouring out of you Now every night you are a scientist Stirring up your blood until it's clean Fill yourself with fantasy and Klonopin It's why you keep on dying in your dreams Something's just been fucking with your chemicals You can see your halo in the mirror Paralyzed in sleep, you are the alchemist She's on her back a thousand miles from here Want to be hunted like an animal Feel yourself torn between her teeth Your black eyes bloom in the kaleidoscope The spinning colours make you weak Cocaine left holes in the occipital Your starry eyes are burning out Dig your grave and lie down quietly There's nowhere left to go but down