and this time has changed me and what was i to do - you were changing, two directions, pushing further falling farther from you - when there is no fault and i won't even say - i enjoy learning things that used to come so easily - for what it's worth, i wish that we could stay the same - and this time it's so hard - just couldn't stay the same - claiming they'll never know a difference, claiming that they'll never change - but if there was some sort of way to slow down the days - and make it so much easier to find the place, the face - i'm holding onto everything, everything from before - i've lost too much, too many times - for the things i should have pushed below