I'm over that hill, I can see to the other side been caught with my guard down, I'm starting to realize through all of the moments I wondered if I'd survive one more day filled with aching I am still alive I'm still alive… when I found out why it was a surprise if I told you how, I cleared my eyes it was four in the morning and I'd failed to capitalize on gifts I'd been given to see through the shit and the lies so that was the last time I'd listen to people I despise and it seemed like the right time to hang my hopes upon the skies upon the skies when I found out why it was a surprise if I told you how, I cleared my eyes when I found out why it was a surprise if I told you how, I cleared my eyes and looking further, I had to take the blame for things that I made happen, I'm really not the same… and looking further, I had to take the blame for things that I made happen, I'm really not the same… arriving this late has it let-downs and disappointing signs if living was easy I'd have to find another source of fright I'm over that hill, I can see to the other side and it seems like the right time to hang my hopes upon the skies upon the skies… when I found out why it was a surprise if I told you how, I cleared my eyes when I found out why it was a surprise if I told you how, I cleared my eyes