It's not you that I hate potentially it's still myself Just trying to keep the distance meant to guarantee my health A part of me that's fighting it, a part of me that's dead Overcoming is a sacrifice. An avoidable mistake Protection of my own. Protection of my fear A drift away from anything inside that once seemed real Repugnancy implanted from the head unto the toe A monster living deep inside that I still see in you Fuck Lost inside the pain, the needle strikes, feeding the insane I'm lost inside my head Rotting skin, deep within it's dead Every time it hits me as I rebound, like a slap I didn't foresee things are gonna fuck with me like that Same old day, same old shit, can't stand it all, sick of it Distant shades, substantially pale Look at me - see the eyes of a dead man's face Marginal - on the floor, a chunk of waste I'm sick. Too sick to continue it Lost inside the pain, the needle strikes, feeding the insane I am lost inside my head Rotting skin, deep within I'm dead Burned in deep within my head Too much time wasted A spoiled complex within A soul at rest All these demons inside Too many days wasted As the waves crush apart Stepless Allergy deep within me Allergy need to let it be Allergy there's no choice you see The reason I despise it all is