It's not up to me It's all I ever need I'm sorry that my past keeps me awake It takes all I have to stay What's my life to me? A box of memories that I would rather leave I've been here before Alone and completely ignored I'm sorry that my past kept you away I knew you'd never stay What's my life to me? A box of memories that I would rather leave I'm sorry for the times I lied only to keep you alive