I went on a self-destructive rampage last night
Now I'm paying for it but can't afford the price
Don't know how I got here been happy all year
Hadn't taken any drugs before this
So I took lots of Charlie and drank till everything was blurry, in an Irish pub in Stokie
Lost my burning desire to live, in a couple lines of Ketamine
Shut up my brain for a sec and washed it all down with some sex
Took a cold shower at anti-social hours and crawled back to my bed
Then I woke up to you and your eyes glazed over like mine
Except you hadn't had three bottles of wine
I'm coughing from smoking and groaning from a headache
I'm wishing I could crawl into your skin for a day
Then I woke up to you and your nose bleed dripping like mine
Except you hadn't had too many white lines
I'm coughing from smoking and groaning from a headache
You're wishing for a drug that can take the pain away
I hope the drugs
I hope the drugs make you feel better
Whilst you're trying to stay alive
I'm using mine to feel deader
I've been cornered by other thoughts I've tried to suppress
Feel like a coward colouring the darkness in my mind with narcotics
Don't know how I got here this was meant to be my year
Tonight I'll wear the mask and play the clown, anything to forget
So I spent my weekly budget on tequila
Shots with the squad like I'm the geezer
Lost my burning desire to live, in a couple of Es and a nasty trip
Shut up my brain for a sec and washed it all down with some sex
Sat on the roof with a rollie and crawled back to my bed
Then I woke up to you and your eyes glazed over like mine
Except you haven't had three bottles of wine
I'm coughing from smoking and groaning from a headache
I'm wishing I could crawl into your skin for a day
Then I woke up to you and your nose bleed dripping like mine
Except you hadn't had too many white lines
I'm coughing from smoking and groaning from a headache
You're wishing for a drug that can take the pain away
I hope the drugs make you feel better
'cause' while you're trying to stay alive
I'm using mine to feel deader
