Looking for something that is real I can't remember how to fell The moments pass before my eyes Make it hard to say goodbye Staring straight into the Sun Life pouring from my hands like dust Empty heart and jet black lungs What have I become? Am I dead or am I alive? I don't feel at all Like I did when I was young I'm feeling dead inside But I'm too afraid to die And I despise, the world I see through blood shot eyes I look up to the sky and fall asleep To gunshot lullabies (lullabies) And though it seems I've sealed my fate My life's a canvas I will paint an image of myself I hate, but can anyone relate In the midst of my life and death Living under this regret If I give up will I find rest? Cause I haven't found it yet Am I dead or am I alive? I don't feel at all Like I did when I was young I'm feeling dead inside But I'm too afraid to die And I despise, the world I see through blood shot eyes I look up to the sky and fall asleep To gunshot lullabies (lullabies) I'd like to speak of love and all it's glory Instead I write it out in sadder stories I try to fill the void with anything at all But I can't I don't feel at all Like I did when I was young I'm feeling dead inside I don't feel at all Like I did when I was young I'm feeling dead inside But I'm too afraid to die And I despise, the world I see through blood shot eyes I look up to the sky and fall asleep To gunshot lullabies (lullabies) To gunshot lullabies (lullabies)