[Christon Gray] And the heat is rising Everything inside is screaming: Turn around now Just run and hide But I've been doing that for my whole life And it's now or never I said it's now or never I come in peace Feeling like Michael Corleone when he dropped his piece I thought I burned that house, so I tossed the keys I must've never lost the pics 'cause they're haunting me Autumn leaves, uh My DM's like a Slip'n'Slide I need it like a needle, I can't sleep at night Hedonism, I didn't heed advice Now I'm in the fetal, dang, Pops was right I was like a kid in a candy store A sour one, couldn't find what I was lookin' for I grew up wanting to sing and rep the Gospel You keep your nose clean when you grow up Penecostal Found a new way 'cause that was hard to follow This was easier to taste, but hard to swallow Like you leave the buffet, feeling weak and hollow So I ran to a legend like there's no tomorrow I shoulda known I shoulda known better (shoulda known) I shoulda known better (yeah, I shoulda known better, uh) I shoulda known better (yeah, I shoulda known better, uh) I shoulda known Better than to come back (here) Known better than to come back (here) Uh uh, uh, known better than to (come back here) Yeah (come back here) Yeah, my idol said I'm Lauryn Hill Then I woke up to a record deal A fresh start'll take my mind of the sex appeal I still want the women, but I'll let 'em chill I guess it was a pipe dream Made it to the league, not the right team They shoulda known ain't another artist like me And I came from a genre that don't like me Wifey left and I couldn't go get her Too focused on tryna be a tone setter, uh By the time I could see the whole set-up The label fell apart and my home was no better, uh So glad I could call on my brother We made a whole album and he let me keep the money So sad that I lost Mya's mother And even though we moving on, I'm always gonna love her, yeah ya'll I shoulda known better (Jesus, uh) I shoulda known better (I shoulda known, uh) I shoulda known better (I shoulda known) I shoulda known Better than to (come back here) Oh Lord, I, I know better, yo (come back here) Uh huh, know better (come back here) Oh oh, (come back here) J [JGivens] Overall, I had a blast, even last year No regrets, just passing here And I ain't exiting to come back I ain't been booked in like 2 months And half the check-ins spent half the check, yeah And I knew this whole thing was gon' be tentative I seen a pretty penny payed for some penitence I seen people judge people be enemies Be friends then different and then be friends again And say that's forgiveness, but that's an industry I was committed in That's how Christian rap get dividends That's some new friends, you get what you got I knew from the get-go that my cousin was finna pop So in seven years, some people will love you just to leverage it Don't look too long that those with limited celebrities Sittin' next to this puppy to keep it real Can't depend on record deals, I'm here switching careers Sending resumés [Christon Gray] I shoulda known better than to come back here But come to think of it, nobody's even home I see the writing on the wall It's your name