My first thought gettin out of bed Wishin I'd have woke up dead I can't remember what was said She's gone on with him instead And now, I've gone to hell I'm doin it...to myself Car won't start even when I try Kicked the wheel and the damn thing died Now I'm ridin on the bus to work Everyone's a God damn jerk And now, I've gone to hell I'm doin it...to myself The wheels keep turnin I keep spinning spiraling to the ground The only thing that I've found is that there's so much further to fall And I cant walk off this mind cramp when my heart's totally self absorbed Oh and who is doing this to me? I'm doing it...to myself