I've gotta say I like it better Now that we don't talk Now that I can't remember Why we spent our time just dodging obstacles So let me, Yeah let me count up all the ways that I've been through All of the steps it takes me not to think of you And you'll find me catching fireworks out on my front porch I look my worst I need practice standing still Because I never really knew how to end a day And my mind doesn't know how to stay the same With all these realizations you'd think that I'd find a way to change Like when I first moved in I was smoking cigarettes my face to the window Three weeks later I'm in bed and I'm still, Yeah I'm still chained to all the drags that'll stop and fuck my health But I've never found anything that works so well And I've been living in a world of sharp, sharp pain We don't think too much but the rent gets paid I need practice standing still Because I never really knew how to end a day And my mind doesn't know how to stay the same With all these realizations you'd think that I'd find a way to change And you'll find me catching fireworks out on my front porch I look my worst I need practice standing still Because I never really knew how to end a day And my mind doesn't know how to stay the same Since all my clean friends moved away Since all my clean friends moved away I never found a way to change I never found a way to change Since all my clean friends moved away I never found a way to change Everything just stays the same