I still see look through pictures all the time 'Cause throwing them away just don't feel right No one teaches little girls to grieve Believe me, there's days I could barely breathe It's sunny in July, I'm with my friends They get it, but I still pretend Shouldn't it be easier by now Everyday there's a new way to miss you, mom Sometimes I hate God for it, is that bad? Sometimes I feel mad at you, isn't that sad? You gave me a fresh start and a strong will And a broken heart that's been through hell You gave me your sweet laugh and your soft heart And a kind smile and real love And I'd give my whole world to get you back Damn, I wish it worked like that Your oldest daughter is everything to me She's been the solid rock when I lost everything I see you in her passion and her smile You'd be proud I hope that you'd be proud of me Sometimes I hate God for it, is that bad? Sometimes I feel mad at you, isn't that sad? You gave me a fresh start and a strong will And a broken heart that's been through hell You gave me your sweet laugh and your soft heart And a kind smile and real love And I'd give my whole world to get you back Damn, I wish it worked like that Can somebody help me? I'm losing myself I'm searching for hope in the depths of my heart They say there's tomorrow after all our days They say there's a heaven where all hearts can pray Not saying I believe it and I'm not alone But these days all the questions show what I don't know I've tried every vice, every prayer in the book I'm done with the questions, I just want you home