I inhale take it in the hate the anger It clouds my thinking it pulls me under Further further my eyes lose sight My ears grow deaf my mouth is gagged I exhale get rid of confusion Returning my focus i try to keep my grip Closer closer lights come on To kill the black festering inside I inhale i choke i exhale i choke I crawl you kick i choke on hope If i, swallow everything that you give To me i would vomit on this world I see your delight in my mistakes Using my shortcomings to your full advantage You're full i'm empty the story old and stale A thousand times over torn to laugh As i sit crying whining in selfishness