Bane

The Big Gundown

Bane


...and did i mention that there are still those days 
where i can hardly lift my head up from the pillow 
or looking out the window of the plane 
rooting for disaster 
sometimes i just run out of reasons 
but the clock keeps ticking and the minutes keep coming 
and all i can do is rise to slaughter the hours 
let the air out of these days 
killing time 
staring into corners or at strands of her hair 
waiting for the call that tells me where to next 
wishing i could trade these stupid words 
for hollow point shells 
before every move that I make equals check-mate 
did i just say her? 
this song is not for her 
no matter what i've said or longed for 
or that her name still moves along these walls 
lives in this pen 
(i've made promises) 
this song is for Buk, for 'Trane, for Wes, and for Marty 
who keep their barrels oiled and ready 
the few that I would trade ten days to spend one hour with 
rare like a ruby at the bottom of the sea 
beautiful like the sparrow in the kittens jaw