You won't reach out to me No, not this time When i need you the most This helplessness is a stranger to me So i'll just hold on and retreat into my core And i am across the world today And there was a time when I would kill to come back But it's been a while and i feel it's safe to say That nothing is permanent but your memory Now nothing's real to me I've found the time to work through all of my wrongs I was becoming a stranger to myself But now i can see what really counts And i am across the world today And there was a time when I would kill to come back But it's been a while and i feel it's safe to say That nothing is permanent but your memory Dried blood on my hands Here's to the boy who used up every chance On nights that i miss you i'll keep to myself And mingle with dreams ‘til they spit me back out